Another hard day with my teenage son. He is really pushing me these last few days. I refuse to back down. In the past we would have a bad moment or day here or there, lately with him it can go on for a couple of days. I am on the right track with him, it’s just a pain staking process. It’s so hard to love someone so completely, but to not like the way they act and not like being around them.
I went to the doctor today, I’m getting a little better. I was reminded to take it easy so I don’t end up back in the hospital. Not where I want to be this close to Thanksgiving. Like all of us, there is always so much to do.
I also went to therapy, not enjoyable but it’s where I need to be. I learned a few things about myself and my PTSD today. This is such a scary road. I won’t back down on myself either. This journey of healing is a rocky road at times, and I want to just quit. It would be so much easier to just pretend. I am good at that, the master of avoidance. I need to work through all of this so the pain no longer eats away at my heart and soul.
Today has been a little hard. “There are some things you learn best in calm, and some in storm” – Willa Cather. I am aching for a little learning in calm soon…… these storms can be hard to withstand.
I am grateful for a place to put my thoughts. I am starting to meet some other bloggers and absolutely love reading others thoughts, advice, insights and ideas.