Today marks the anniversary of one of my most deepest heart aches. This day has forever stained my soul. Changed every little thing in my life. It’s so hard to fathom how one day can so significantly change the lives of so many people. Yet, if you talk to anyone that has been through such a traumatizing event they must say the same thing. I won’t get into little details of what happened on this day just a few years ago. It is too painful at the moment. It is my goal to share the events one day soon. My heart starts to palpitate as I even think of what happened on this day. I stand by my faith that I will come through all of these deep hurts. I want to say how much I love my mom and dad and sharing our story is as much for them and my kids as it is for me. I was once told by an amazing woman that you are as sick as your secrets. Starting this blog is my way of not hiding behind the shame of our secrets. We all have hurts and things we are not proud of! It is how we handle our struggles that really counts. I tell my son all the time: “it’s easy to have composure on the field and act appropriately when you’re winning and everything is going good. It is when things are not going well and you’re losing or have already lost that’s when someones true character shows.” He hasn’t mastered this very well yet. My life has not always gone as planned, I do hope that through all of my challenges and heartaches I have held my composure and still been the person I want to be.