Have you had one of those days or even weeks where you were overwhelmed?
Sometimes it isn’t even one particular thing that makes you overwhelmed. It can be seeing your child, your spouse, your friend, family member or a dear friend going through a hard time. You find yourself wanting to fix things and you just can’t. You realize there are truly things that can’t be fixed.
There are days I see my children struggle through the loss of their father and their grandparents and I want to help them. How do I help them when I am finding it hard to help myself? If you haven’t read about our family and you would like to, you may do so here.
When I am overwhelmed, my natural instinct is to avoid. I am the queen of avoidance…. I can appear to everyone around me as if everything is perfect in my life. When in actuality I am dying inside with grief and pain.
What I am learning to do (and this is a process) is to do everything different…. To let and to allow myself to feel; just actually feel. To accept myself wherever I am. To no longer allow myself to stuff things. No longer pretending; I spend so much energy trying to protect others from seeing my pain.
This is what I am choosing to do today as I sit here feeling overwhelmed. I will be okay with where I am, I will love myself regardless and allow others to see my needs.
When I am at the end of my rope and I am overwhelmed I will gladly admit it and give it to God. He is my unwavering rock when I can’t seem to plant my feet firmly. Rather then turn inwardly I must turn outward to him.
From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. Psalm 61:2
What do you do when you are overwhelmed? Do you ever find yourself avoiding what’s really going on?