There has just been nothing in me to write lately. My heart is heavy, in shock and is immersed with grief. The grief of the loss of an amazing soul the world has lost way too soon. I also have this unbearable pain of seeing one of the most wonderful women I know, live through an agony that is unnatural and devastating. I am powerless along with so many others that love her.
I keep searching for the whys. Realizing I’ve gone through the whys in different situations throughout my journey and they never appear. There are so many things in life that do not come with answers or solutions.
I do want to reach out to my readers, friends and family and ask for prayers to be extended at this shocking and poignant time.
I have struggled trying to come up with the words to extend out to everyone surrounded in this great loss. All I know is there are no words. All I can do is dig deep and give my unconditional love. I give my deep unconditional love to this tender gentle man that is no longer on this earth. I know he can still feel the love everyone has for him, he is now free to fully feel this love and to accept it. I will give unconditional love and support to all that cherish him. I will then continue to give my unconditional love to God. This one is hard for me at times. Even though my faith in God is strong; my first instinct was to blame God and doubt Him and His Grace. Today with a heavy heart I am choosing to just love and let there be no words.
“When I stand before thee at the day’s end, thou shalt see my scars and know that I had my wounds and also my healing.” – Rabindranath Tagore